A while back I read in passing, a line that discussed what it was to live the pain of painting. I couldn't get into the subject at the time due to being distracted by some other subject. But in retrospect, I wish I had read more. I am not sure what to think on this subject other then, it is a feeling I am encountering prior to painting something. It is not a physical pain, such as I got oil paint all over my clothes, or I accidentally put the brush in my mouth bristles inward. No, it is a pain in the process of creativity. I thought maybe someone out there could enlighten, provide insight as to such a phenomena.
Open for discussion...
Good Evening ALatorre,
I believe I understand what you are referring to. I, too sometimes feel a type of "creativity pain" that begins right as I start the process of putting together all of the elements of a new piece of work in my head. I feel a little anxious and sometimes will even develop a wee headache from "thinking too hard", lol. I find that if I start to put the thoughts on paper (ie. sketching out the idea, making a materials list, etc.) the anxiety lessons and my creative ideas begin to flow easier as they actually begin to manifest themselves into a material thing rather than just an idea. Have I completely missed the mark here, or is this similar to what you were describing?
First of all thank you for responding. I think you are on to something here..the symptoms are definitely similar. The question I have is whether this is a common sensation that goes away with time and experience or is it something that arises when one is achieving the true meaning of creativity. I never felt anything like this till recently. pondering....
Sometimes just the angst of the white paper...
that is a good possibility
I get a little tingle of fear every time I look at a blank canvas with palette knife in hand. I get another when I've stopped, but I can tell something is off about the painting and I just can't figure out what it is.
I'm convinced it happens to people who are perfectionists - who have a high opinion and high standards for their own work. Each abstract work is a chance to bomb spectacularly without being able to figure out WHY.
Also, paint is expensive. No one wants to waste that stuff. lol
Art: (n) Long periods of staring at a canvas, interrupted by frantic bouts of activity followed by swearing.